Wednesday, March 16, 2016

The Garden of Forgiveness

Learning to forgive, truly forgive, is like a balancing act of strength and meditation. It can be an exercise in prayer. You have to stretch those forgiving muscles and work them, building up strength.

Forgiving those who have hurt us is perhaps one of the best things we can do for ourselves. Maybe they don't deserve it but you deserve that peace.

For me it starts with a hesitant prayer of forgiveness but as the months go by I am filled with peace and even love towards the one I am forgiving.

Grudges are so 2000's. Let go, let God.

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

My Worst Enemy

Enemy of truth
Knife in my back
Sharp slanted words
Unsolicited attack

Violent oppression
Playing on my fears
I can't escape her voice
See her face in every mirror.

Thursday, March 3, 2016

Counting Pills

One, two, three, four, five...
How many pills to stay alive?
Six, seven, eight, nine, ten...
Down they go. Say Amen.

Once I took them by handfuls
When for death I was hopeful
When nothingness seemed bright
Darkness looked like light

One, two, three, four, five...
Anything to have a life.
Six, seven, eight, nine, ten...
Working to feel human again.

Healing scars and lost memory.
No longer living life absently.
Fire now an aid, not a peril
The broken girl becomes able.