Monday, October 17, 2016

Feeling Small

I am surrounded by many a wall
I don't have the strength to count them all
far too many are standing in my mind
and the air ticks like the clocks you wind
and I feel so small

I fall like the leaves on the tallest trees
I fall and I cry out as I skin my knees
I bite my tongue and taste blood
my tears overflow like Noah's flood
and I'm flying in the breeze

If I wasn't already lost I would run away
There isn't a single thing left to say
Going to jump over the line
Did you really believe I was fine
Please don't make me stay

How the Wicked Sleep

How can you sit there acting like a victim with someone else's blood on your hands?
Willing to cut anyone's throat so they will meet your demands.

Do your lies soothe like lullabies 'til your wicked heart can sleep?
Or does this wolf hide in the grass counting the sheep?

Someday I know you'll get caught in your own webs, twisted and tangled.
And you're true face will show, mutilated and mangled.

Spoken Word

A picture is worth a thousand words
But sometimes you need something to get you through the darkness.

Sunday, October 16, 2016

The feast

Cut me up
Serve me like a cake
A slice for everyone
Their final take

My scars and heartache
Form a dotted line
Cut along it
You're doing fine

Gather round
Time for the blessing
A feast of lies
Past time for confessing

If the taste in your mouth
Is bitter and sour
It's the tears you taste
From my final hours

Friday, October 14, 2016

Lists

If you spend your life writing a list of all the bad things that happen to you... The mistakes you made, the wrongs that have been done to you, the knives in your back, the disasters you could not control, the harassment you have endured, the lies you've been told, the broken promises, and so on... If you use your energy to write that list you will only be able to see that negativity. You will become a victim and you feed the darkness.

But if you write a different type of list.... Not a list that denies that bad things so happen, but a list that decidedly focuses on the positive and recognizes that there are things we cannot control. A list of friends and family, and the little things that keep us going. Bubble baths and good books, funny movies and late night laugh sessions... If you write that kind of list and push positivity back into the world you will see good where you once saw only darkness. You will become a survivor and thrive. You will be the light instead of searching for it.

Tuesday, October 11, 2016

If

If every word
Healed a wound
I would write odysseys.

If every syllable
Stitched a broken soul
I wouldn't cease speaking

And if I could do not
For my own heart
I would still keep loving

Monday, October 10, 2016

Hello Again

I have a terrible habit of starting a project and then letting it fall by the wayside as newer projects begin. I don't want that to happen with this blog. Maybe no one will ever read it, but it's good for me to put out their my feelings and thoughts. So, I've decided to challenge myself to write a blog post everyday for the rest of the year and if it goes well, maybe it will continue and I will do a post every day in 2017.
This will mean I'll need to plan for busy days and keep up with it, but I think that week be a good exercise for me and my mind.
The posts don't have to be gigantic thesis style literature. A haiku, a photo of a painting or sketch, maybe a question that's bothering me. Whatever is on my mind that day when I post.
Although it can be about anything concerning my life, I hope to make the focus mental health and living a healthy life with a mental illness (or two, or three).
If you're reading this, thank you...and stay tuned!